I’m sitting here feeling so burned out. I’m debating about whether or not I even have the energy to eat dinner. It is not like I ran a marathon today. But I did wake up, make the bed, take the dogs out, pack up some of the office, take pictures for Poshmark & Mercari, list some items, go to the grocery store, and I think that is about it. That was a lot for me to do, considering I am working with like -100% energy. If you have a mental illness, I know you understand where I am coming from.
I went to the Walmart Family Market because it is closer to our home and (supposedly) cheaper than other grocery stores. When I left, I’m ashamed to say that my bill was $160. For TWO people. I do not know when I have ever spent that much at the store. I got some bread items, cereals, salad items, trail mix ingredients, black bean burgers & sweet potato fries, some frozen vegetables, chips, granola bars, peanut butter crackers, and some fruit. Some how I managed to spend what it would take me two days to make being a Veterinary Assistant back in the day. -_-
Anyone else over this social distancing thing? Ugh, it is miserable having to always wear a mask. Thankfully, I had some new masks come in that I ordered from Ebay forever ago. I’ve tried wearing the cloth ones but they have never fit my face right. It’s interesting to see how some people take the mask wearing very seriously while others decide to not wear one. I was prefer to er on the side of caution and keep something hot & uncomfortable covering my mouth right now. With my immune system, it is better to not roll the dice.
Currently I am reading Thats Mental By Amanda Rosenberg. I’m on the fence about how I feel about it. I will have to let you know when I am deeper into the book. I’ve definitely laughed at some of the statements, as they are relatable. I read a chapter today that discussed disassociating & feeling numb. That chapter really hit home with where I am in my life right now. At the same time, I almost feel this book would be more helpful for someone trying to understand mental illness, as opposed to someone experiencing it. It’s worth the read for me though. I’m realizing I greatly appreciate writing that has relatable sarcasm with a ring of truth.
Grizzly decided to sit on my brush when I was about to dry my hair earlier. He felt that if he licked my dryer (it was off) and plopped on my brush that this would enhance his chance of getting pets. Grizzly is such a sweet cat that it is hard to not love on him. When the hair dryer comes on though, he quickly disappears. Unlike my husband and chihuahua that will come lay on the bed specifically to listen to the noise.
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